I am not a risk taker..

Monday, April 23, 2012

I have 2 option:

Procedure 1 (Minor Operation): Repair / remove meniscus. Clean up fibrosis. Manipulation Under Anastasia (MUA). Inject steroid to reduce pain. 

Procedure 2 (Major Operation): Revise everything. Redo ACL using hamstring. 

When doc said:
Physio will not help you anymore. Just maintain muscle. Avoid squad, climb up and down stair case. 

Both procedure, I will not guarantee you to full bend your knee. 

I pray:
Ya Allah.. Please allow me to walk and pray as normal person.. Please guide me to the correct decisions..
Sport I can put it aside. Simple GYM routine is more than enuf as long as i can sweat.

My status: In confuse and unsure. Just realized, I am not a risk taker..  
Investment,work,property risk is not the same as health risk.


Which option should I choose? 

How I lost 14 kg in 1 month ? .. Dare to ask?

Wednesday, April 18, 2012


Tiba-tiba rasa nyampah pulak baca entry2 macam ni...
Tiba-tiba rasa menyampah pulak orang dok sibuk-sibuk nak kurus... 
Perasaan menympah menjadi-jadi bila ada yang menjaja kejayaan org lain kononnya hasil drp advise dia.. 

Bluwerkkkkk..... such a lame..

Tell the truth..
Apply active lifestyle and balance diet.. That's all!..

I am basically sport active.. 

I like to sweat.. sweattt... sweatttt...
I love outdoor since primary school...
I like adventure.. 
I am adventurous by nature..

But to be active doesn't mean u need to be kurus like model... 
Kurus doesn't mean you are healthy...
Overweight or chubby doesn't mean you are unhealthy...
Obesity Morbid is YES.. 
No excuses!..


My tips:
-Cut your meal portion..
-Drink plain water... only take sweet drink during breakfast.
-Eat regularly but small portion..
-Exercise early in the morning with empty stomach.. plain water acceptable..
-Try basic food.. Plain Rice + protein + vegi.  (Boleh control calories..)
-Istiqamah
-Puasa


Main masak-masak .. :P

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Tiba-tiba rasa nak masak.. takat makan 3 orang boleh la.. tp kalau nak masak utk ramai-ramai rasnya x daya dgn kaki yg sakit and dah attack my back. 

Cooking not a big deal sebenarnya.. Busy kerja LIBL memang jarang masak.. Sejak2 MC nih jer.. Teruk sungguh LIBL kerje selama nih.. ishk2.. 

Mak LIBL dah kerah LIBL masak drp sekolah rendah lagi.. jadi eldest perempuan in family mmg kena kerah. I have to help my mom masak..Then baru boleh buat keje sekolah.. Huahauhuhaa.... Dasyat kan?. Kalau tak tolong nanti kena bebel.. Tak pon bapak akan dtg..pg tolonh mak tu sbb mak dah bising kat bapak sbb LIBL x tolong. Ngeh2..  Sampai sekarang jd tak sedap hati klw mak sorang2 kat dapur.. kih3.. pastuh kena sapu sampah dlm umah..luar umah.. mop umah.. rasa mcm cinderaRELA sgt.. 

Cuti sem masa kat U lagi la.. hari2 kena masak sblm mak balik keje. Maka, bukak ler buku resepi..majalah.. Dulu2 LIBL dah ada dah buku resepi. Gunting newspaper or majalah.. tempekkk dlm buku. Pening wehh..hari2 kena masak. Nowdays jer org letak dlm blog.. 

Cake pon dah pernah buat .. biskut pon pernah buat.. zaman muda2 tuh. Tak ingt hari raya bila, LIBL buat biskut ceri.. kasi pewarna merah.. hehehe.. org dtg raya seram tak nak makan biskut warna merah.. :)))

Capati jd piring terbang pon pernah.. kah3..

Weekend lagi la.. kena siang stock seminggu punya bahan masak.. IKAN, AYAM, UDANG, SOTONG.. bla2.. mencikk bila kucng jiran 2 tiga ekoq dok mai tgk.. meow..meow.. pas tuh duduk 10 langkah kucing drp LIBL.. 

Thank You Mak!!.. wp dulu LIBL sgt mencikk nak kena buat menda ni semua.. Now, cooking not a big deal!!.. Sewing and craft.. oso mak yang ajar.. I can sew my own baju kurung actually.. tp masa je x der.. mesin pon x der.. harap skill masih ada.. kih3.. 

Alamakkk...melaluutt...

Plan today nak pegi to the wellness spa makcik kepada my fren. More to HPA product..Dah lama dah mak cik ni dok belajar HPA. Finally berjaya bukak kedai sendiri. I just wanna give a try.. too painful last Friday.  Tergolek dog after work.. :(

Nak makan pain killer or panadol.. dok fikir smbil baring.. ttb Zzzzz..

I got back pain sbb jalan yg tak betul.. 
Sepesis LIBL yang tak geti dok diam. Lunch pon kuar.. weekend pon gigih jalan2..
:(

Member ajak makan kat kedai since her husband outstation. Kesian.. bosan nak makan sorang-sorang katernyer. Maka dtglah idea.. 

Meh umah ler.. akak masak!..

Macam la LIBL masak sedap sgt kan.. kekeke..

Semalam beli stock sayur mayur di NSK, Kelang. Tak jauh pon drp sepital kelang. Murahhhh!!... Nana! ajak Firdaus shopping sini!!... org bukak kedai makan borong bahan mentah kat sini.. BUT.. trust me.. very-very cheap and fresh!.. 

Since, my fren still dlm pantang keguguran.. kena pilih sayur yang sesuai.. Saya suka tgk kawan-kawan saya  ni makan..sgt berselera.. Alhamdulillah.. takot gak kalau x sedap.. Almaklumlah jarang2 masak..

Tapi sejak x bleh sport.. memasak ler pulak... tp jgn la makan sorang2.. share the fat!!.. kekeke..

Ok lahh... 

Hamikk..penuh dgn gambar makanan.. yg x der sambal kicap.. malas nak amik pic!..
nasik seperiuk abes.. bertambah2.. I like!





T.G.I.F

Thursday, April 12, 2012



One sweet morning.. 
Boss.. I want to work..
Terkejot boss LIBL.. 
Humm... I am not ready for operation.. I want to work!.. :)

Lega sangat bila dah cakap kat boss yg LIBL nak kerja...
I need some time to research and really digest all option. 

I will.. 
Just need some space..
I know that I have no time..

Empat bulan lebih mengadap sakit and hospital... 
Kembali bekerja and able to walk (wp sakit2).. rasa macm I get my life back!
Alhamdulillah.. 
Feel better..

Few office mate tegur.. u look better today.. :)
Ya Allah..agaknyer selama ni rupa LIBL ni mcm mana?

Moga Allah s.w.t sembuhkan kecederan ini dan dipermudahkan urusan...
Moga Allah s.w.t sembuhkan leukemia yang sedang menyerang my good old fren itu..   

I understand his pain but truly inspired with his "semangat"..
Worrying is wasting..katanya.
Proceed with life.. Do what I want as long that i am still alive.. 

LIBL did text him..
Kagum tgk ko..I wish I am strong like u!..

He replied: Aku selalu doakan kau!..

Thank You Buddy!




i LIKE my SCREW!

Friday, April 6, 2012

My boss said :

You need to make decision.. even your car still or will be there few more month u still need to make decision..

Halahh.. serabut laahh.

Baru jer rasa lega sbb hopefully keter esok siap.. 
Siyes... LIBL x pernah tinggal istiharah walau sehari tp x nampak jalan lagi.. cuma rasa tenang.. ..YES!..

I am happy to work.. meet people.. call customer..
Do troubleshooting.. 

even i have to bear the pain!

I really miss my lousy old life!..

I  am just realized, stay at home alone for recovery bring no good to me!.. 
Emotionally disruption.. 

Basically, I am not ready to face all tht pain again!.

I am NOT emotionally, financially, physically, spiritually ready for my next surgery..

In fact my mom still crying when I said tht I need to go for surgery..

I need to find my strength..

Inner PEACE..
INNER strength..

Lantaklah.. my kaki.. i am the one who gonna face all pain!!..
what ever the outcome.. I am alone who r going to face it.. till my entire life. 

ME!! yes.. YES..ME!!

I will never decide for surgery if I am not ready!!..


For the time being.. Just allow me to go to work..



Obvious scar tissue.. tu yg bawah tempurng itu..

 Screww... not properly inserted..







Owhh.. my tilted knee cap!!..reason for pain and not able to get full ROM.

Might be because of patella tendon harvest..

NO.. naturally born that way..


kalau revise operation..  tambah lagi 2 skru.. part lain pulak di amik utk ganti.. & bla2..
Ada berani? 

Imej kedoktoran yang tercalar

Tuesday, April 3, 2012


Tajam menikam tak ayat itu?

Ini yang saya rasakan sekarang.. penuh persepsi pada doktor pakar. Yer doktor pakar bukan doktor biasa. 
Tak dinafikan ada juga doktor pakar dan Medical Officer yang boleh dipercayai.. Nowadays, kita kena berhati-hati. Tak semua orang nak jadi doktor tp terpaksa jadi doktor. Atau kerana glamer!..

Ramai doktor akan marah pada saya dgn statement ni tp ini adalah kebenaran..

Saya ada tanya pada seorang doktor melalui blog tp dia diamkan sahaja. Ada kawan-kawan doktor (tak semua) pon hanya mendiamkan diri sahaja. Sikap berkecuali katernyer!

Saya memuji doc ni yang jauh lebih boleh dibanggakan drp doc yg dasar bekecuali atau tutup mata.

Terima Kasih kerana reply e-mail saya. 
Terima Kasih kerana memberi pendapat. 


Dr AstXXXXX
MBBS; MSc Sports Medicine (UK)
Sports Medicine Consultant
Tel:+974-33XXX
e-mail: drastxxxx
Aspetar, Qatar Orthopaedic and Sports Medicine Hospital

Hard to find a good doctor nowadays!.. 

Saya tahu setiap penyakit Allah s.w.t yg sembuhkan bukan doctor tp at least doc trying his best and do his job properly. Not like my previous surgeon. Kalau physiotherapist hosp tuh yg suruh saya tukar doc. Katanya doc nih suka semelih & wardkan org... Huhh.. NOT me SAID this.. SumONE told me! 

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Dear LIBL


I would suggest you go and see Dr Tay again. Talk to him of the various options already suggested to you by other doctors. I know him and he should be able to give you the best possible option for you. It would be difficult for me to provide you further advice online as I have not seen you.


Regards,


Dr AstXX


On 2 April 2012 05:50, wrote:


Thanks for your reply Dr.AstXX,


Just to tell you my story.

I did my physio religiously for past 4 month.

Along my recovery, I got 2 times infection where my operation scar suddenly bleeding.
Since then, my knee flexion become slower and slower. I did highlighted it to my surgeon. For my 1st infection, he took out a stich from the scar that cause infection.
2nd infection, no stich. I continue my physio as usual. Passive and active knee flexion has been done but too pain full.


I went to Kelang Hospital for further physio after my GL expired. About 2 month later. They (physiotherapist) said, something is not right and ask me to inform my surgeon.
I did inform him. Asked him if i got fibrosis. He said I think to much and tell me not to worry.
My surgeon asked me to continue physio another one month MC. All together 4.5 month MC.  


After a month, I did not see any improvement. I did my physio, swim, workout at gym. No improvement. My knee still painful.
Physiotherapist advised me to get other doc advise. From my reading, I have all symptom of athrofibrosis. Then I see Doc no 1 as mention in previous email.
He listened to my concern and checked my knee. He issued MRI.


From the MRI result, confirmed I am having fibrosis inside and suddenly got meniscus injury. I did not fell down that might cause me injured my meniscus.


I see my surgeon, show him the MRI result. I already highlighted to him about the athrofibrosis and what he replied.
Again he said this is only diagnosis and ask me what I want him to do.
His reply piss me off.


I discover that my surgeon forgot to asked physiotherapist ice my knee (cryo cuff) after operation until 3rd week.  The operation so sudden, 4th day after injury.


I went to see Dr Gan, Damansara Specialist. He told me the graph position was wrong. Advise me to redo everything back. He looks confident but to redo whole thing is so scary.


Then, Dr Tay from Kuala Lumpur Sport Medicine Center, he said technically wrong inside my knee. The graph position is acceptable.
He advise to inject gel & do physio. Worse case is operation.


Now, I am confuse which one should I do. That why i am looking for another opinion.


I am for sure no going back to see my surgeon or ask him to do my 2nd operation.  


Regards,
LIBL


From:        "Dr. AstXXXX    ail.com>
To:        NHXXXX.my
Date:        31/03/2012 05:57 PM
Subject:        Re: Request your opiniont.



Dear LIBL,

Sorry I've been away and will be away from some time. Although I'll be back only in July 2012 but it would be difficult as my practice has closed in PJ. Here are my suggestions:-

1) Go back to see your surgeon who operated the knee - find out what's the current situation
2) Complete the physiotherapy
3) Check again after completing the recommended duration

I do not usually recommend you to see another surgeon since he may not know the exact situation during the previous surgery. Hope this helps.

Regards,

Dr AstXX

On 29 March 2012 11:05,



<LIBL> wrote:
Hi Dr AstXXX

I am LIBL from Shah Alam.
I did my ACL recon (patella) and MCL repair on OCT 2011.
Unfortunately, until today I did not get my full ROM and extension. Along the recovery, I got meniscus injury. My knee stiff and quad muscle still waste. Latest MRI shows that I am developing fibrosis at hoffa's fat pad.

I have visited few doc tors for advise.

Doc 1: Minor Operation. Clean the fibrosis and move the knee cap to centre.
Doc 2: Revise all.(ACL,MCL) Reconstruct my ACL using hamstring.
Doc 3. Inject Gel and continue physio.
 
I plan to visit your clinic but note said tht you not in MY. Let me know when are you coming back or  advise me, the best orthopaedic in MY who experience in handling this case.

Regards,

LIBL 

7 Things To-Do In Times of Hardship

Monday, April 2, 2012





Soure: http://www.productivemuslim.com


“Whoever works righteousness, man or woman, and has Faith, verily, to him will We give a new Life, a life that is good and pure and We will bestow on such their reward according to the best of their actions.” (Surat Al-Nahl, Verse 97) 


“He that is righteous and patient,- never will Allah suffer the reward to be lost, of those who do right.” (Surat Yousef, Verse 90) 


During times of hardship, it’s essential to remember there are effective ways to deal with any difficulty.



Here are 7 practical steps to help you face any difficult situation
  1.  Salah. Make sure you stick to praying on time – 5 times a day. Never miss a salah and do your best to pray each Salah with sincerity as if it’s your last salah in this world.
  2. Read Quran. This Quran is so beautiful that no matter what difficulties you face you’ll find solace in it. Especially read Surat Yusuf. The scholars say that no one is faced with hardship and reads surat Yusuf except he finds sweetness and calm.
  3. Make Dua. Especially the dua for removing anxiety .
  4. Give Sadaqah. Give lots of charity, as much as you can, because it helps push away hardship. And if you can’t give money, even kind words or physical sadaqah can do (i.e. helping people physically or emotionally).
  5. Set Goals and Have Vision. Don’t let shaytaan play with you and keep replaying the video of your hardship in your mind over and over again, move on! Set new goals, new projects, and remember you’re with Allah, nothing should stop you!
  6. Wake up Early. Wake up before fajr and work on your ideas and projects, or simply read Qur’an. Getting busy before day break is a definite way to move away from your hardship and overcome challenges. Get most of your ideas/work done in these early hours, these are blessed hours.
  7. Hardship is Not Lost. Remember, Allah will never forget the injustice/hardship you faced, so don’t worry about seeking revenge or trying to get justice.
  8. In the end, I pray that Allah (Subhanahu Wa’Tala) removes all your ordeals and hardships, blesses you all with a good life and helps you remember Him day and night, for “Verily, with remembrance of Allah, do hearts find rest”. (Surah Ar-Ra’d , verse 28)



O Allaah, I am Your servant, son of Your servant, son of Your maidservant, my forelock is in Your hand, Your command over me is forever executed and Your decree over me is just. I ask You by every name belonging to You which You name Yourself with, or revealed in Your Book, or You taught to any of Your creation, or You have preserved in the knowledge of the unseen with You, that You make the Qur’aan the life of my heart and the light of my breast, and a departure for my sorrow and a release for my anxiety.